Milestone

Today I am 30 weeks 5 days which is exactly how far I was when Cohen was born. I am happy to have made it this far and now every day is a bonus. I am really encouraged and doing so well! so I think I will make it a while still. At the doctor last week we did an ultrasound and she measured 2 lbs 11 oz. It's easy to picture how big she is because Cohen dropped down to that a few days after he was born. Bed rest is going well, I am becoming a weakling for sure. I am really looking forward to the day that I can quit taking so many meds. They make me feel weird, I hate drugs. :) I just had to up my dose to keep contractions under control, it worked but it doubled the side effects. I also have to do my shots every 5 days now. My legs are getting pretty ugly :) and numb....
The kids got to come home for a week. It was so fun to see them and spend time with them. I have really mixed feelings about having them here. I want them here and want to see them so bad but it is REALLY hard to have them. Cam is so great and does everything and Kacey has been staying to help, so I have tons of great help! There are just sometimes the kids just need their mom, (and I need them) so sitting here is not an option, and I pay for it later. They love to be in Koosharem so it is easier to let them go down there. It's still home to them. Cohen has turned into a Grandpa Jay's boy he kept asking for him while he was here. He wanted grandpa's four wheeler and was pretty excited when I told him that is where he was going. I think Caeli likes to be down there so much because she gets away with a few more things than she does at home. (ok, more then just a few) They will be back over Memorial Weekend. Ok, enough rambling.... :)

We had the most unbelievable tragedy here in our apartment complex Monday night. A little 5 year old boy was hit by a car in the parking lot and was killed. It has been the most somber week around here. Words can't even describe. I have never wanted my kids around me so bad in my life. It really puts into perspective what is important in this life. On nice days we are all outside running around and enjoying each others company and it could have been any one of our kids. I am grateful that my kids were not here and out there when everything was going on. I am trying to figure out what to say to Caeli (if anything) She doesn't have a clue, but I would almost like to be able to have a discussion about safety. We live on campus and the school has been so wonderful to have counselors available for everyone. I wish I could have gone to the meeting they had here if nothing else just to show support. I think we all feel so helpless, but I really do because I can't really leave my couch much.... The family has just been in our prayers constantly. Thank goodness for Eternal Families!

I think I just have too much time to sit around and think about useless things. I know this is my 3rd pregnancy so I should have something to compare to but neither of my last pregnancies count.. When I was pregnant with Cohen I only gained 4 lbs the whole time and that was a bad thing in that case. With Caeli my body was completely different but I still didn't gain hardly any weight when I was pregnant with her. So I am having major depression over all of the weight that I have gained with this baby. I am still not quite 30 weeks and I have gained a lot of weight. So I am wondering.... what's amount is actually normal to gain? I am just curious what normal healthy people do when they are pregnant.

Miracles

After a stressful weekend I am feeling really blessed today! Saturday night my contractions got really bad and I ended up in the hospital. When they checked I was dilated to a 3. They got the contractions stopped and gave me the first steroid shot. The Doc said if there was any change to get ready to be shipped down to the hospital in Ogden. After that hour there was no change so they just kept an eye on me and kept me here in Logan. We kept the contractions under control and when they checked on Sunday I was at a 1-2! They were all pleasantly surprised. Going backward isn't exactly common :) I know it is due to all of the prayer! Thank You all sooo much for contributing to that. I felt really bad because Mom had brought the kids up for the weekend and I didn't even get to see them much. Needless to say I am now at home on STRICT bed rest. Today has been a good day with relatively few contractions. We are just very grateful to have wonderful friends and family! Thank you all and your continued prayers are appreciated!

Pregnancy Update

This is for my own journaling purposes. I am really bad at actually writing things in my journal.

I am now 27 weeks along with this little girl. I have been on bed rest now for about a week and it really is helping. I started having some really bad contractions after my trip home to Koosh a few weeks ago and they got progressively worse until I ended up at the hospital one night. They gave me a shot of Terbutiline and it stopped the contractions so they sent me home with some pills of that and here I lay. I am right now about a week earlier then I was when I went into labor with Cohen. That's kinda wierd to think about. They won't let you deliver at the Logan hospital until you are 32 weeks, they send you to Ogden before that. So at this point my goal is to make it to that point (at least) and then go from there. Caeli and Cohen are at my Mom's- well, sometimes. They are going between there and the Grandma's houses when mom is at work. I miss them, it's pretty quiet around here. But I don't know how I would do it if I had them. Caeli would be fine but Cohen is quite a handful and there is no way I would be able to lay around like I need to if he were here. I really appreciate family. I don't know what I would do without them! I get really frustrated because whenever I do anything I have contractions. I tried to just sit and fold laundry one day and regretted it the rest of the afternoon. I can see that bed rest really does help but it's hard to do nothing, especially when it is so nice outside. I am at least getting a lot of good reading in and catching up on some food network time (which just makes me hungry and want to be in the kitchen :)) Cam has been so great too. I feel bad because he is right in the middle of finals and working his butt off, and has to babysit and worry about me. He takes really good care of me and I appreciate him more then I could even begin to say. He even cooked Sunday dinner yesterday! I love and appreciate him so much. What a great husband. I am so blessed.


UPDATE: I went to the doctor yesterday and things are looking great! No cervical changes!!! yea!! he also changed my medicine from trebutaline to nifedapine. it is so much better. I haven't had any contractions in the last few hours and don't have near as many side effects from this medicine. (I take it regardless of contractions.) Also my iron levels were normal this week so I don't have to go in for my IV. I am feeling so much better and am so happy!

Easter Saturday

We enjoyed some pretty low-key Easter Saturday fun. One of the local grocery stores here in town hosted a fun little "bunny lane" it was really cute. Caeli loved it because they had a map and she followed it around. These pictures are in reverse order here. Bunny lane was after the egg hunt up at old main hill. When we were up there Caeli was scared to death of the easter bunny and hid behind a tree nearly in tears. I was surprised when she ran up to the one in the store and gave him a hug.

This is the bunny up at Old Main Hill. Cohen was mostly interested in the carrot that he had. Cohen didn't get the egg hunt very well. He picked up a few eggs but mostly was just checking out all of the other kids running around.
I had to tell Caeli that it was OK to pick up eggs that weren't pink. She passed up a ton of eggs because they weren't the right color. She got a ton though. Her favorite thing is this little "baby" deck of cards that she found.
At home this morning she got up and found her Easter basket before we heard her and knew she was awake. She woke up at 7:00 and we made her wait with us in our bed until we finally work Cohen up at about 7:30. She just kept saying, "I don't believe this, he is a sneaky Easter Bunny". She also kept saying that she would share her easter basket with her baby sister next year. She also keeps asking me when I eat some candy if the baby is liking the easter treats.
Although I plan on having some good family time tomorrow talking about why we have Easter, I did have a minute with Caeli and we talked about Jesus and Easter. She got really quiet and said, "it says that in my scriptures". It was cute. I can't wait to talk about it a little more tomorrow. Christ's resurrection is easily one of my favorite subjects. What a good thing to remember as spring is here. Easter is a great holiday!

Our week in Koosh...

We were able to go home this past week for conference and then stay a little longer. Cam had to stay home and work. We were really sad about that. We missed him. Cohen pretty much won't let his dad out of his sight since we got back. We did have a lot of fun however. It was fun to see all of my siblings. We always have a lot of good laughs when we get together. While we were home Cohen was Grandpa's little buddy. It's cute. He would just go and cuddle up on his lap. (yes the poor kid is wearing a princess bib. My mom needs some boy things are her house)
We are a big game playing family and have a ton of fun. Caeli has picked up on it and made all of her Aunts (we'll call Mandy that, we love her) play go fish with her. She had the cards all dealt out and told them all where they were allowed to sit. I was not allowed to play. It was even getting a little competitive. Teri hates to lose. I promise Caeli gets no special treatment. She thought she was pretty cool hanging with the big girls.
This is Caeli's friend Kacey. They are the cutest friends and we have missed them so much since we moved. They got to play almost every day we were home. This is right after the Koosharem easter egg hunt. They were so cute and sat there forever going through their candy. Cohen loved the easter egg hunt too. He mostly just wanted to pick up the suckers. I may have helped him get a little chocolate though. It was soooo windy that day. We tried to make it a quick egg hunt.
Caeli is finally not scared of her little forewheeler anymore! She drove it all the way from Mom and Dad's to Grandma T's. (a few miles round trip) Mom walked next to her the whole way in case she needed anything. Cohen really loves it and is not scared at all. We didn't let him ride it much. He's not very good at holding on. He would have spent all day on it if he could have. He's such a boy.